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Lauryn Hill’s Message Of Self – Love Must Remain Imperative In The Hip Hop Culture!***messymandella***

English: Lauryn Hill, performing in New York's...

English: Lauryn Hill, performing in New York’s Central Park in 2005 (Photo credit: Wikipedia)






women rapped and kept their under garments on and just spit their lyrics.

Only a few pictures of men could get glimpse of a bathing suit  a bra top or  a wardrobe  malfunction but that was it, it would go no further. Lets be clear, I also adore most female rappers in this industry but these are half-naked most of the time because is it so common place these days.

When you are an avid activist of women In the arts, such as myself, you understand  Lil Kim and Mrs. Minaj and message of female expression and empowerment, even if you don’t care for the perception and the molding of the young female minds. They are both beautiful women with a message to women, but not little girls!

However unfortunate  but obvious is that  women have abandoned the life lessons of solidarity and we are culture “Miseducated” but that money will overshadow the power to our people and education of our youth  will make millions these days.


The revised rap blue print for women   is  a paradox to the Miseducation Of Lauryn Hill and her foreshadowing on the slut like activity of women that we celebrate and even honor at the Grammys.

Lauryn was cut from a different cloth and opened our ears to self-pride and self- preservation.

Apparently the Hip Hop Nation will not be able to envision another genius who also carried herself like a queen, and not a “Trap Queen.”


Back then, a person would not be half-naked every day unless she was a day time hooker.

While we as women and men  should be someway protesting, and demanding fair treatment by men, we are subconsciously every stereotype to “keep” a man.

        Thanks to Snap Chat, Twitter, and  Instigram we are so disillusioned of  what is substantive or superficial?

      No pictures of Queen Latifah‘s big draws or MC Lyte‘s   panties would have been posted all over social media.

We relentlessly speak of Women Empowerment, but that is not what the younger listeners are going to identify with and embrace.

        The message of mental strength is lost with butt shots, mindless sex and  money over anything genuine in this life. We have to nourish our families physically and psychologically

       We don’t comprehended how lost and fake we are in this world and Kendrick Lamar is kicking off that knowledge.

Lauryn Hill foreshadowed our mental and spiritual weakening  and the truth was too scary for her so she escaped her public existence and moved out of the industry.

      Mrs. Hill is the woman who could have been on the level of Nina Simone,but she escaped her surroundings and lost her musical vision in this ever-changing hasty culture.


It is challenging to stand up for your self-respect and principles when you are trying to protect your people, usually the backlash comes from  your message from the very people you are trying to empower.


Fight For Our Children’s Rights And Show Love To All, Like The Late AIDS Activist: Nkosi Johnson***messymandella***

          Nkosi Johnson born in Danhauser, South Africa died fighting for acceptance during his impending death. Nkosi did not expect to live, he just wanted to be treated fairly. He could have be your nephew, your baby brother, even your son. Children born with AIDS didn’t transmit the virus by their lifestyle, or sexual contact. Even as babies, they are treated like diseased pariahs that are a sad remembrance of their parents transgressions. Nkoski is no longer in his physical form , but he loved and wanted to play, jump and go to school, like all children want to do,but he could not out of the stigma of AIDS. Nkosi was adopted and loved, and we can appreciate him today. I know we always change the  television when Sarah Mclachlan sings, “Angel.” However, that world exist, you can’t live a sheltered selfish life, and not learn and love people who don’t have a chance to tell their story. Meet, this Angel! This sweet baby boy. Ever day remember you are breathing and you are thriving, leave a legacy, just like Nkosi.  

(4 February 1989 – 1 June 2001)

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bob bowers- one tough pirate is still fighting ***messymandella***

Bob Bowers is an AIDS Survivor and determined man!
He has abandoned the victim role and became a fighter who believes with diligence and self awareness you can live your life, but take your meds. Bob is a part of my selective Twitter Fam, and I love him for his courage and bravery.
Here is a glimpse of A mortal that will remain unchanged by his diagnosis, but will vow to give reassurance to those men and women that have contracted the disease. Even The HIV negative family must  support the HIV Positive family. No one should fight alone.


mykki blanco reveals his hIV Status to the music industry. ***messymandella***


       When the world is under the impression that frivolous and meaning less sexual encounters are not reckless, it takes a rapper with HIV to bring a reality check to the rest of the world.  Mykki Blanco has informed the world of her HIV status. He possesses a  confidence and  courage, but regret to inform the world of his HIV Status, sooner .
 The openly  infected  HIV positive person understands that their career and well-being are in danger, but their health is important but it has to be revealed after you have gained success, because record companies and the public are afraid to take a risk and the reputation of the artist determines their overall success. In the 1980’s when GRID now knows as AIDS destroyed  the Art World and only destroyed gay men and they would lose their lives, while wearing the purple Kaposi’s Sarcoma Spots that would indicate to anyone familiar with the disease their health . The purple spots foreshadowed the AIDS victims early demise.


“I’ve been HIV positive since 2011, my entire career. F— stigma and hiding in the dark, this is my real life,”  “I’m healthy. I’ve toured the world 3 times but I’ve been living in the dark, it’s time to actually be as punk as I say I am.”
             Now  AIDS and HIV are a part of the urban  scene  in  2015 and the disease itself is destroying families  and costing  millions, but reckless life is deemed more important.  
Maybe if we were aware of the men and women that died painful  deaths over 25 years ago, we would value our bodies more?


Maybe, if all possible we learn  that by searching for just sexual encounters is empty and sets the tone of self-devaluation?
                It is highly doubtful that AIDS will ever disappear but as a HIV negative person, it is still  a  fight that I will continue to speak on, due to the state of the world we are living in. Your business is your business, but your sexual behavior determines the lifestyle and legacy you leave behind.
We can’t assume that beauty doesn’t go hand in hand with criminal transmission.
 The negative stigma of AIDS is a problem in the African-American Culture.  As a little girl, I watched family members list every other disease but AIDS when we would lose a loved one. We don’t want to admit that we as a culture are in danger.
          Pretty lips are a weakness, not protecting yourself is simply weak  minded.  When you are asked to list sexual partners, will your  list of partners be presented in a brochure or  will have as many pages as a phone book?
            Don’t endanger your lives, and inform your partners on your AIDS status, it is not fair to the person,who has decided to play Russian Roulette with their life. Accidents happen, and condoms break , but no protection is insane and stupid.

However, Stupidity should still come with a social responsibility and we must end the spread in our communities. 


The Curious Case Of AIDS And HIV Transmission. ***messymandella***

We now know that the AIDS Epidemic magically popped up out of nowhere and people believed they were not at risk unless they were Homosexual Men . Now we know of course, that was the false hood that  spread faster than the virus itself. In the early years of AIDS it was call “Gay Man’s Cancer” but even before that  it was called “The Gay Man’s Health Crisis” meaning middle class Christian America turned an ignorant ear to the impending plague. The uniform of an AIDS patient, of course was Kaposi Sacoma (purple blotches)that were a dead give away that you were infected.
Ronald Reagan did not give a damn, if the “others” died.As we know now, AIDS has dominated the lives of many urban married, single, white, heterosexual people. The facts were few and far between, on the origins and possible cure when it comes to HIV, the virus that causes AIDS. There are many conspirators regarding who and how AIDS was released to the masses.

Act UP’s angry protest and public funeral of Marc Fischer! The anger of ghost of people who are no longer breathing but died with no regard. If the epidemic would have been pushed to the forefront of everyone’s agenda. It would have remained contained and millions would be alive today.

Regan and Bush didn’t ponder AIDS as anything political and financially beneficial to him. Why would he care about funding for the “others” and now, we all are the “others” and I know I am HIV Negative, but I know so many that are living with this disease. Now AIDS and HIV doesn’t kill you immediately as before. You live longer, my cousin succumbed to AIDS earlier this year. She was diagnosed in 1989, you can live for 20 years with the virus, just as Larry Kramer, Magic Johnson, Andy Bell(Erasure), and many others that have contracted the AIDS Virus.

This is how gay men were dying; no one knew what was happening but this is a visual approach to beginning of the plague years.This is a private moment released to bring you into the epidemic as it quietly crept on into a nationwide fury.Protect yourself, and live…
Collecting footage from personal films will enable you to envision the time, that some heard about or didn’t care about, during the early stages. If this virus had not been introduced as a “Gay” virus, we could have saved lives. This footage, from personal AIDS victims that are no longer with us,  once again will bring you to those last days. Some of it is graphic because, it is the early stages when they had very limited funding and education. Let me be truthful, AIDS Research went unnoticed by President Reagan for years. ACT-UP decided to protest.
The Art World decided to memorialize their dying community by the “AIDS Estate Project.”  This virtual gallery is still active to today.  With that being said, where and how can a disease come out of nowhere and kill thousands and later millions?Some believe it was a genetically contrived to lead millions to their graves. Why AIDS? Why in the 1980’s?


Once America was told it was from sexual interactions and unsafe bodily fluids being passed that caused the virus.
We think we know…
Some of us have heard the story of Patient Zero, Gaetan Dugas. He is known of the AIDS victim, that  criminally transmitted the virus while employed as a flight attendant. Now, the question is how did he contract the disease? Some have said in Africa the meat and cannibalism, and bestiality were the cause of AIDS.
Either way there is not one definite answer how humans transmitted the virus. The first case of AIDS apparently now wasn’t Gaetan Dugas, because Robert Rayford contracted it in 1969 as a teenager. Gaetan and Robert didn’t know each other, so we can not be 100 percent accurate about Gaetan Dugas and him maliciously infecting people AIDs. Did the government administer AIDS? Why are some still searching for different strangers to sleep with, not knowing their last name or sexual history? AIDS didn’t leave our nation, it just changed the the primary carrier group, now the deaths and infections are from Urban men and women. One time is all it takes to recieve HIV,and the AIDS Activist that died fight to inform us on the dangers of reckless sexual activity. You don’t know who has AIDS and you increase your chances with promiscuity. I believe now, if someone will have sexual intercourse with so many partners,they already aware they have a disease or don’t love themselves enough to cherish their body and not become a statistic.





EP 101 – DIRTY 30 “Black Women & Single Motherhood” – Documentary Series on HIV and AIDS ***messymandella***

AIDS and HIV are prevalent in the urban communities and some still use casual sexual practices as if this will not eventually catch up with you.


In this case AIDS is not a punishment like the right-wing wants you to believe. AIDS is spreading because women and men stopped kissing, and stopped caring but kept having sex. Some of the finest men have baggage and some women who come to Bike Week, behind stage at concerts, and at the strip clubs already have a disease that they regret getting and feel resentful, but want you to suffer their fate. It is  and bitter person to infect others that it is now a living, breathing, reminder of that one time.
           Women are also getting diseases that are faithful. In this world, we have pretty much accepted we don’t need respect, kissing, love and attachments and a faithful woman must turn the other cheek. However if the woman slept someone that same man would not turn his head.Which is a devastation to the family structure but also to the person that wakes up with a rash from a one night stand.WE are getting away from building with each other. We are too busy degrading our women. I would never imagine MLK saying or even mumbling the disrespectful things to women. No excuse, don’t laugh it off speak up. IF he does not have a condom, that should be foreshadowing right there. Women will keep living in your homes alone with your babies, and the men will continue to act like roosters at a hen house with no responsibilities. We have to do better, and remind each other how we respected each other before Civil Rights but ask ourselves, what the hell did we do wrong?

          It happens, and we are foolish to think that condoms won’t break. I have no idea why women would give oral to someone who doesn’t think enough of them to kiss them? You also can get a burning sensation and sexual transmitted diseases are spread through the mouth, and that is the most reckless, but people choke about it. Condoms do not always work and some women and men will use criminal transmission of AIDS or HIV due to their life and ability.  A man in South Carolina knew he had AIDS and still had sex with women and even went to Myrtle Beach and paid prostitutes and strippers to perform.
Those poor women just wanted the money…
            Whenever those strippers left South Carolina, that money didn’t mean shit. He bragged about what he did, and how reckless they were. These women probably have children and maybe a boyfriend, but the recklessness of it all has changed their lives and they never even got a real name or a  last name.  Yes, M.W.  used a fake name and also impregnated two teenage girls after that incident. He is locked up behind bars, NOW. His damage has already been done.  Let this be a reality check.
All that glitters ain’t gold, baby.


Katy Perry:UNICEF Goodwill In Support For 35,0000,000 Living With AIDS***messymandella***


When someone has Terminal Cancer, your saddened and in deep malevolence. When someone succumbs to AIDS typical questions of blame are asked instead of remorse.”They must have done something wrong!” “It’s God‘s punishment!” “Well, he shouldn’t have done what he was doing?” Any lost of life or impending death should be respected, and it should be a humbling experience  to anyone. I have been to so many funerals, where the person said, “Ummm They had Cancer.”

We’re proud to share this new version of UNICEF Goodwill Ambassador Katy Perry’s ‘Unconditionally’ video, in support of the 35 million people living with HIV, especially young people suffering in silence.


America’s Shadows…HIV Risk in Black and Latino Youth***messymandella***

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