For Real***messymandella*** #SoulfulSunday

If you are willing to jump, can you jump into the unknown?

Can you step outside of your element,  and give it a chance?

I have always been a very stubborn person, that is probably why God gave me such strong intuition.

 I can feel emotions for someone,  that the public would assume is emotionless.

I  view people not by their title, or what other people think they are…

NO, I almost made that mistake , but that feeling is deep and if you are intrigued follow that feeling. Ask for respect and privacy,because they would expect that.

Some things you just can’t explain, and maybe you can’t because it is too powerful.

It is not about a kiss, or any sexual act.

The mental and spiritual connection is magnetic and so powerful, that you can’t just let it go!

Journeys and discovery take bravery and that spiritual connection.

You will never be able to explain it, unless you are chosen to feel it!

Then, You will know it is real…

 

#WorldCancerDay: Remembering Taylon!***messymandella*** classic story

 

       I wrote this story in 2014 about Taylon! If you notice, I am no Oprah, but I always revisit stories that are  unfinished and still search on a weekly basis for  results on the status of their life, and vindication. I am her for people who are injured , assaulted, molested, murdered or fighting a battle of illness, that it is only matter of time…
 
I  never stop searching and checking up on the people that have for some reason are a permanent part of my life and the connection is stronger than the majority of the world would even imagine. I am saddened in this case to bring a tearful follow up for a brave little girl, that no longer is crying and suffering.
 
Taylon passed away, a few months back but here she is before the end to remind us that every day is a fight that we take for granted. Here is Taylon’s story and the reason I continue to follow up  on past stories, is because everyone’s life means something, and they are here for a reason. I  am a tough and feisty little woman, that has the heart of a giant and the determination  of  100 men. I will not be content  t0  I make a difference in this  crazy and sometimes deceitful world. Even if I write thirty stories a day and to community work every hour,  I still will never be as strong, humble  and  courageous as you were, Taylon!
 
I Love You!

 
***messymandella***

 

 

          A courageous little girl named Taylon wanted ONE wish! She has an inoperable tumor, and now is living the rest of her life just appreciating each day. She has a powerful and captivating presence. Taylon, We Love you more than you can ever will imagine.
 
            You are one of the stars that even when we can’t see you; your spirit will still shine. You embody everything a soldier would embody to fight a war.
 
          You will always have a place in everyone’s heart.This baby doesn’t have long to live but she is and will be an Angel, and a remarkable light in everyone’s eyes that meets her. I can’t fathom someone so young preparing to die, but as of now she has accepted her fate…
 

This little lioness will leave stains on your cheeks. I am sobbing right now for this phenomenal little princess.

 

 
 

When Teaching ‘Hood Etiquette’ Goes Wrong! what in the trapped out the bando hell did I just watch? ***messymandella***

I mean if I didn’t comprehend the drug game, I do now.

Is this the “Future Trapper Association For The Future Prison Trustees?”

While those babies are dancing not  one adult is listening to this muckery, or whipping on this sweaty man? 

 

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love * hurt * destruction * amy jade winehouse ***messymandella***

         When Amy Winehouse graced the world with her “Blue Eyed Soul” she had the world captivated.  Amy had her own style and a distinct voice that could easily rival any of our jazz greats. She was loved by millions and had  the world at her feet. She came into  the Music business with a sense of purpose, and an innovative way to reinvent soul, and transform it into her unique adaptation that no one could duplicate. She changed perception of music in terms of infusing reggae, soul, and jazz in her recordings. Amy Winehouse was compared to Dusty Springfield and even Billie Holiday. Why did we lose her?

        Amy Jade, left all her talent and life behind after only  walking the Earth for   27 years. Now she is  a member of infamous 27 Club she will be one of those “what if they would have lived?” conversations for years to come.

       When Amy married Blake Felder -Civil her appearance and behavior became a circus in itself. The couple would fight and walk around the street with bruises and would even cause disruption on prison visits,and they had to search her Signature Beehive for contraband.

http://www.popcrunch.com/amy-winehouse-blake-fielder-civil-fight/

        As her popularity grew her financial and professional life took a back seat and she began  to concentrate on her social life instead of  talent. Later rapid rumors of drug and alcohol abuse were later confirmed. Amy was seen on drugs and alcohol on various forms of   video  and pictures. The reporters of the publication “Sun”  printed a damaging video of Amy smoking Crack Cocaine on film. Sadly one of her own peers sold the footage to the tabloid.

         Amy  Winehouse was an attractive girl who later lost teeth,weight,and her own voice began to diminish, due to her lifestyle. Her legal problems and show performances suffered because of her addiction, and she wasn’t allowed in the United States to attend a performance, because of her reputation and legal problems. Some of her live performances were down right embarrassing, but Amy wanted to prove to the world she was still a singer.  Her fans kept waiting for her to make the ultimate comeback and silence all the negativity in her personal life.    

          Amy Winehouse made her comeback, or so we thought during this time. Sadly, her physical and personal life still controlled every fiber in her being. Of course it effected her voice, and  her comeback  was ridiculed and she went into a deeper alcoholic and drug related self medicated process. Amy  looked confused and intoxicated at every performance in her last days. We  kept waiting for her to come back, but she never was able to shake off those demons. What could have happened? Who would  Amy Winehouse be today, if she  could have been sober and demon free?

          Now the world will have to wonder what could have been for the  Deceased Lioness, known as Amy Jade Winehouse?

Here is the documentary.

 

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Happy Mother’s Day From The Childless ***messymandella***…

       I  shall become a mother, but I wanted to serve my purpose to help others and give my future children a sense of self and determination.

      I want my sons to look in the eyes of their dad and see courage and mischief, but also rest in the home knowing everyone in our household will remain safe.

I want my son to want to strive and have wisdom. Their dad must instill values regarding the dangers and mistakes.

I want a daughter that knows she is beautiful, but will

 

use her mind and spirit to lead.

She will always respect her man or woman. Her partner should always respect her.

I don’t want my daughter’s visiting their baby daddy behind bars, or her husband to have an inmate number for life.

I want to build pride, unification, and self-love within our world.

We as a world can become financial wealth, but spiritual wealth is just as beneficial.

Salute to you mothers that have divinity and life  goals  for empowerment within ourselves and the youth.

You mom’s are the reason I believe in love and a career with strong foundation.

 

 

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nia long juggles her career and her children with respect and style!***messymandella***

 nia damn 
 
   Unless you have cataracts or hot sauce in your eyes, you can NEVER say Nia Long is not one of the most unbelievable gorgeous people in the world.

Look at her eyes,skin  and her bone structure they are nothing less but  perfection.

Nia Long never ages physically , and she actually becomes even more gorgeous each year.

Nia has that confidence and inner strength that radiates through her body and she juggles her career and her life as a mother.

Nia Long is a true respectful, and strong woman who can handle her own, and wants longevity in the game, and she doesn’t seem to be leaving the limelight any time soon. 

I don’t think anyone is complaining, are you?

 


 
 

 

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bob bowers- one tough pirate is still fighting ***messymandella***

Bob Bowers is an AIDS Survivor and determined man!
He has abandoned the victim role and became a fighter who believes with diligence and self awareness you can live your life, but take your meds. Bob is a part of my selective Twitter Fam, and I love him for his courage and bravery.
Here is a glimpse of A mortal that will remain unchanged by his diagnosis, but will vow to give reassurance to those men and women that have contracted the disease. Even The HIV negative family must  support the HIV Positive family. No one should fight alone.

ACT UP_FIGHT AIDS

Determing Your Own Karma!***messymandella***


 
Once the mask is removed you wish that person was the person you assumed to be, and you would do anything for them could be someone else.

It is a nightmare and a dishonesty that shatters your entire perception.

Everyone has to guide themselves through the mess but running, it is  mean, and it  is hard to believe it is true.

When you are obsessed with materialistic items over spiritual elements your selfishness is

Revealed in an excruciating and dramatic curtain call.

 

Does that make you an evil person?

No, but you are aware of your actions…

Do

What

Is

right!

If you feel horrible about  manipulating someone and being greedy, admit it but don’t just run away from anyone in general that trusted you.

 

Some will never have enough money, but little boys and girls run and hide from  the devastating truth.

 

Your karma is no match for any piece of jewelry or amount of financial existence.

 

You don’t put that Karma out there and once again run and hide while she suffers in

 

Silence.

 

It takes more self-respect to make a statement and admit you were wrong. The woman in this story is not me, but I know he was wrong, and it hurts to watch someone you know enjoying  gaining monetary satisfaction by conniving his way into someone’s pockets, but never face the consequences or even apologize for hurting her.

 

I was heartbroken recently to notice someone who I assumed was an amazing, but sarcastic person played with someone’s heart and used them, with no recourse or emotions.

Until, I had to face the facts that some people just don’t have that guilty feeling no matter what happens, money can fix it,or so they think.

He did not have to be with her, but he could have paid her back.

 

As an adult, you have to ask yourself, why would anyone assume that they could hurt and destroy people with no recourse?

I wanted to believe it couldn’t be true…

Now, he can’t run from her anymore, he needs to do what any Grown man would do, own up to his mistake and apologize for his

Behavior.

As long as you have that evil Karma  out there, you continue to  push your self to the brink of destruction.

Make it right, I laugh to keep from getting upset…MUSIC

 

He will always be arrested, fighting or living that Savage life, but you can be too damn old for games,and it is time to look at the “Man In The Mirror” and stop running.

 

 

 

Bleach Wars: Oprah “Light Girls” And The Skin Bleaching Addiction! ***messymandella***


 
      We are brainwashed thanks, to our Willie Lynch mind-set and media obsession with skin color. We are embarrassed with our nappy hair. Does that make yourself more European? We have natural hair treatment that we used to avoid nappy hair. You can add extensions and weave with an silkier texture. It still does not mean you are unhappy with your race. Weave has a negative connotation and women debate, and have to defend the ideology of weave. Now, the skin bleaching cream is a horse of another color (no hair pun intended) because it is shameful that you hate your skin.

 

” I Was tired of being ugly.”
 
dencia
 
         Even in songs people want a “Yellow” women like it is a trophy. When did black become ugly? Black became ugly during slavery and the House Slaves were usually mulattoes. The darker skinned slaves were treated as second class slaves and were required to be in the field. Our generation wouldn’t doubt their beauty unless this hatred is taught. We stopped loving ourselves.
 
       You can’t leave your job dark-skinned and then show up the next day the color of    Mariah Carey.
 
Something is wrong here, mentally not physically.

       Your body, your liver, your self-hate and self-deprivation!