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BEST of 2015 -reflections and rants from ***messymandella***karmin- best of 2015

You must be exactly what they believed you would never become.  Never listen to negative people in your earsdrums clouding up your vision with their fears of failure.


We can all  count at least 10 rappers or guitarist that have the ability to feed their families by doing something they admire, but assume it will  never become a reality. It doesnt matter where you are now, and even if you are the president of your company, strive to be a partner. We all deserve happiness and hard work pays off. In  our  local neighborhoods or inner circles our own families and friends may  never believe in their ability. In the end, it will hurt in the beginning, but in the end if strangers believe in your work and reach out to you, them damn your naysayers.


 I would beg and plead for people to read my blog, but it was pretty shitty at first.  I still decided to keep trying, and that this is me. I keep my older articles around just for shits and giggles and reflection. It was scary when my article for Robert Yummy Sandifer reached 15,000 views. I republished this story because of the readers and now combined it is over 71,000. Men lie, women lies but numbers dont lie.  I have proof for the haters that  are  reading this sentence now. Even when I found a great guy and we departed  for a minute because of a lie and I was in pain, I still had to keep pounding and deal with hate that the lie unfairly gained. I flight a group through heart- break and  by praying but every week they still tried to convince him to leave me and talk to others in front of me to test me. Yup, hurting me and talking to other girls were a test. You should never have to purposely hurt others by talking to others in your loved ones face. Every week until we finally  stood together!I prayed to regain my reputation and at times  my tears would bring an increase in my doubt’s. I am still fighting through that same foolish lie, but he saw the best in me. Yesterday I prayed while in tears, and didn’t feel like working on my blog, until he motivated me. He stood by  me  through more test and the weekly pep talks to hurt me. I found out that even through a lie, he is right here every day. I also decided I didnt have to prove anything to anyone locally, strangers became the most devout readers ,but through hate. He motivated me.

Your  love life is not a collaborative effort and the manipulation to destroy are tools from the Devil,to keep you distracted instead working towards your full potential. God would never ask you to risk hurting someone you love to prove something to someone else.


These events at times made it damn near impossible to focus on blog. I needed God, while always wondering, “what was next?”


I  live in a small town  identical to “Mayberry” from “The Andy Griffith Show.” Well, unlike “Mayberry” we have black folks. Even though my grandmothers still refers to black as “coloreds” and President Obama  as “Rockaroma” but that is an mother story…  I know that standing up for me will be a difficult journey for him but he is an integral part of what thousands read every day, God is in control  and some of my highest rated articles are from the tug a war to keep him. In the end,you will go through hell but focus on what you love. Never let grief stop you from getting your voice heard. I don’t care if you are a rapper that works at Dairy Queen, you are still are a rapper. You will lose friends and have personal distractions, they should not be taken lightly but it will eventually pay off.  


Those tears will be your inspiration to prove them wrong and hold on tight to the people who encourage you. Those tears will bring you strength to your artistic vision.


Stop listening to hate. You must stay optimistic and tell all those friends and family members that doubted you, “I told you so!”

Suicide Prevention! Signs That Someone Is Contemplating Suicide! ***messymandella*** NEW: Natasha Bedingfield

Suicide, leaves many unanswered questions!
Why did the person give up?
What could I have done?
Will that person go to Heaven or Hell?
Who pushed them to the edge?
Environmental Factors That Increase Suicide Risk
“Some people who have one or more of the major risk factors above can become suicidal in the face of factors in their environment, such as:
A highly stressful life event such as losing someone close, financial loss, or trouble with the law
Prolonged stress due to adversities such as unemployment, serious relationship conflict, harassment or bullying
Exposure to another person’s suicide, or to graphic or sensationalized accounts of suicide (contagion)
Access to lethal methods of suicide during a time of increased risk

Again, though, it is important to remember that these factors do not usually increase suicide risk for people who are not already vulnerable because of a preexisting mental disorder or other major risk factors. Exposure to extreme or prolonged environmental stress, however, can lead to depression, anxiety, and other disorders that in turn, can increase risk for suicide.”