Classic***messymandella***Remembrance Of The Spiritual Life With Janet Jackson***messymandella***

         It is natural and you are expected to mourn deceased family members during the holiday seasons,due to accidental death or by the Lynch Mob       the corrupt police department, and we also don’t mind when we kill each other…

 

          However, in our society if you are single on Valentine’s Day, you are a failure according to the diamond companies, Hallmark and commercialism of Valentine’s Day.  If you do not receive  an abundance of materialistic presents on Christmas, then you may feel inclined to lie about everything you received. More gifts, means you have more loved? People assume that after a funeral that you are gone. In the casket, it is a shell of that person and even though you may not be able to hug or talk to them, they are not spiritually gone. Your spirit and energy doesn’t die, just the shell of your former self, you still have that person and you can feel when their is an indication that your loved one is still loving you, looking over and protecting you.

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        It was a story of a man that entered a home and was about to burglarize and assault a woman but he ran away. The police did eventually located the fleeing burglar, but asked him, “Why did you run?” He told the police,”Because of those two men standing behind her.” Later they asked the lady about the two men that were there and she was puzzled because she was by herself the entire day. NO ONE was there,or so she thought… 

        We don’t leave this world, and you can be confident in knowing what ever you believe about the spiritual world,realize people can share connections even if they never have met. If energy doesn’t die, and the spirit doesn’t die then your loved ones are still here in spirit. NO, not like a ghost town or anything like that, but a spirit that will give you strength when you feel you are alone.

         You can feel their energy hovering around you and just understand that you will behold their smile again and you will have a opportunity to hear them laugh again. They are fully aware of your bereavement, but they are no longer in anguish and unrest, we are the ones that suffer,now.     

             If the connection is that strong you know that their presence is not far behind you and you can feel their love around you. You may be devastated in this point of time, but their spirit is dancing in the moonlight, so just try to dry some of those tears and don’t hold on to blame, mistrust, or arguments that were never resolved. They are still here,even if you don’t recognize your loved ones presence they are still smiling back at you.

 

Soulful.sunday l Man In The Mirror l Justin VS. Michael Jackson***messymandella***

“If you want to make a better place,  take a look at yourself and make a change.”

Sometimes you need to be spiritually uplifted.

You decide your destiny and legacy.

Will you stand up for your beliefs, when it goes against the Majority?

This song written over 20 years ago, still has an impact for lasting self-love.

Do you shy away from the true you?

I want you to see the beauty in you!  

When  someone tells you about your self-worth, tell them to look in the mirror and to evaluate their own  life.

 

***most read today***Learn The Game! ***messymandella***

 

We adhere to street codes and live and ride for our city. When you are  a “Street Star” you will remain a whisper, a legend and cautionary tale.  Karlton Hines is now a Legend but he is not living.  Talent, looks, and money  were his traits that caught the stares and jealousy from others. That will also his downfall. Karlton,a Basketball Star that family and friends revered and perceived as a Hero knew he was a leader and a born legend.  We all have a chance to get out of the hood! However, urban men are told the only practices that will gain them wealth are pimping, drug dealing or Sports. No one even attempts anything else without doubt. We are programmed to believe that these are the only components to accomplish hood wealth. We don’t realize that money is from other hands that know we will eventually destroy our neighborhoods forever.  Someone needs our men dead, and we are helping them achieve this feat, every day.Karlton Hines played Basketball, and he knew he had the fame and admiration of everyone. He was raised in a single family neighborhood.
Karlton  could be seen in PS1 Park playing at 3:00 AM.His coaches wouldn’t push his studies, because he benefited them. Game  was already in front of  him. He  was under the impression that his grades were second to his ability for the game. Karlton had over 30 recruiters at a time offering him scholarships. That power and understanding of game is that the people that are left behind, sometimes want your impending failure. Karlton  quit because of a disciplinary problem. He also lied about his address to play at the school of his choice. He was caught after hours breaking the rules, and  instead of dealing with repercussions he left school. He quit school 4 months before graduating with his High school diploma Of course, he was attractive and had charisma that would always propel him to another level. Karlton won MVP when he was only 13 and 14. Older children were intimidated by him,because of his game with ladies, and with the courts. Karlton(nicknamed “C”)did not bite his tongue on the court. He had physical and mental strength that other ballers envied at a young age. Karlton was the baby,but garnered more attention than his older brothers, and street soldiers in the game! Karlton could have made millions legally, but he couldn’t leave the hood values and backwards mentallity. His brothers were not blessed to receive Karltons gift of street intelligence,that would later be his curse. He was 6’5  and athletic, cocky and was given every persons admiration, and full attention.

He loved the “Stage!” Yes, the hood has its on stage and community that is the mecca of the dealers,players, and goldiggers. They know how to get chose, and be seen. Once you get chose to be a part of “The Life” you are too afraid to leave what you know to be morally incorrect.

  In the hood it only takes a “New York Minute” to change your entire life. Karlton and his friend were walking from the store. They were in an  altercation with a neighborhood friend “Tweedy” and  “Tweedy” pulled out a knife. Karlton defended himself with a bottle, it went across  the neck, of  “Tweedy”  and was pronounced dead at the hospital.  Karlton stayed on the run for 11 days. He was arrested but later set free, because it was ruled self defense. Karlton walks out a free man, but that one moment changed his entire life. He was damaged to recruiters,  and already entered the system and his life had a few limitations. He could no longer be  a Hood Celebrity  by the Basketball Game, so he the chose the other side of the game.

Karlton’s street soldiers  had him walking around with thousands  in his pockets. He could not forget his hood. “Duncan Hines” had that rush of adrenaline and that mental choice to be the Legend. He didn’t want basketball to  infiltrate his street credibility. He chose to leave his talent, and go for the blood money. Karlton decided to walk further into the pit of destruction. His looks and personality started to change. He also blamed Coach, old teachers, everyone  for  not having  his back, and he was too ashamed to go back to school, he went further in the  drug game!

PETER “PISTOL PETE” ROLLOCK

Pistol Pete and the Blood affiliated Sex, Money and Murder gang were the scourge of the Soundview section of the Bronx back in the day. In his teens and into his early twenties Pistol Pete acquired a reputation as a ruthless killer, who made millions in the drug game in the late 80’s and early 90’s. He was known as one of the most feared and powerful men in New York during the crack era, who could get people killed with his word alone. His influence and organization stretched south from the city’s five boroughs reaching out and touching states all across the eastern seaboard. Pistol Pete was one of Soundview’s Original Gangsters, setting the bar high for his hood and the Northeast Bronx. – Gorilla Convict http://www.gorillaconvict.com/peter-pistol-pete-rollock-2/

       One thing some don’t understand about “The Game” is that you always are competing.  You only live once, but someone is always ready to shoot you, and make an example of you, and tarnish your legacy. What you build is a charade of evil and an “Execution chamber” This game will never have a winner.  Karlton  Hines found that out the hard way,  with his friend Carlos.  Pistol Pete who is know serving Life stole Karlton’s chance at a new life.  karlton Hines was 25 years old when he died. He was found with $5000.00 in his pockets.  It’s a game that we will not win. No matter how many times we live it and remember it,we hope it will be diffrent. Karlton Hines died on April 8th , 1994 and that money in his pocket could not keep him breathing, so what did it give him?

We are getting caught up in these movies, and images, and giving props to men behind a cell who can’t even go outside when they want, but we idolize them. We even study where they went wrong, so we won’t make that mistake. No one wins the game, and it is a trap.  Karlton Hines is in a casket  and Pistol Pete is in a a cot on a box with stories and commissary.  We are destroying our own existence and making single moms raise the babies without knowledge on how to make a man survive. Karlton Hines chose the wrong game to gain fame. Even though we know, no one wins in the game but everyone thinks they will be different…

I was here! ***messymandella*** beyonce and nicki minaj

I love the fact that it is “supposedly” a mans world.

When a woman steps in the spotlight, it intimidates some weak-minded individuals.

Are you that strong force to be reckoned with,do you catch a glare in your hater’s eyes?

 Can you stay in the background and “bite your tongue? ”

You must not know about me…
 

 
I know that I am here to help people, and be strong!

Sometimes its hard to stay strong during adversity, but that pain and betrayal will make you free.

I don’t think any man or woman should be quiet just to please the masses.

 Sometimes it takes that small little voice to make the forest shake! 

Are you going to let anyone bring you down?

 They will make you second guess your destiny, but is that their fault you let them win?

 I want freedom from liars, racism, and homophobia!

I want Santra Rucker home!

Santra Rucker will get her freedom, or at least another chance at life, we worked hard enough!

http://messymandella.com/2015/07/21/santra-rucker-sentenced-to-390-years/

I refuse to stop teaching young women and men about emotional and physical abuse.

 I refuse to sleep with someone who has a girlfriend or partner or be anyone’s secret.

 Lying and withholding information are the same damn thing.

Don’t fall into the trap of being simple or afraid of making your dreams your proud legacy and never let someone bully you!

 I am going to make sure that I leave my mark in this world like it or not, I am here.

I strive to give love and patience to everyone I meet.

 I can’t be like everyone else, because I am different and I stand up for myself and my beliefs.

I never look back at my mistakes, just the people who made them…

Mistakes are free and experience is a gift.

Mistakes are nothing but pain and reflection that guides you to your blessings. 

I will not be submissive, and let people defame my character.

I have a damn voice, and you are going to respect it! 

Even if you know how your heart feels on certain issues, your self-respect means more.

 We Are all Responsible to let our light shine.

I feel freedom, when I leave a manipulative situation!

I feel free!

 I don’t care when they are mad, if they deserve the anger!

I will never give in to self-serving people.

I will never bow down just to be loved.

Do you let the world see you?

I am not going to live to be 80 years old, I just know it! 

 I want my remaining time to be spent with true friends and loved ones that had my back no matter what happened.

Respect my outside life, because in my personal life I am a very private person… 

My inspiration and dedication will guide me through it all.

 I am sure that through your emotional turmoil,  you learned a lesson.

 I refuse to settle for someone who does not deserve me.

You shouldn’t either, be free and live your life!

I want to show the world that I was here…

 

 

 
 
 
 

nsfw-worldstar video camera episode 19 / revisiting my Briki***messymandella***


 

    Genuine camaraderie and emotional attachments come from Buffett runs and  rating the spiciest dipping sauces. These women prove that size is just  a number, and food is just a hobby.
 

       Why should they not be proud, Brika should be president of Oscar Myer or Nabisco, and I am 100% percent sure her milkshake will bring  all the boys to the yard. 
 

       You don’t understand that she “pick it up and then  drop down” and that itself takes endurance and a strong ass back. Brika fa claims that she is  tastier than a dill pickle, she also likes to have sex at angles,Brika is a mathematician and a magician to pull that off…
 

   Dear Brika, when you said, “work your fat ass” my life changed forever. Thank you for your entertainment and you have a  lifetime fan. I am not a 300 pounder girl, but I still can “pick it up and drop it down!”
 

 

 

 

 

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wu-tangs o.d.b.’s psa for safe sex ***messymandella***

When I spent the night with friends, and we all lied and went to The O.D.B. concert.

That  will always be one of my favorite moments, with Mark and David.

Yes, I am prissy and girly, but I get along better with men. Most women want to gut me like a fish…

Yes, Old Dirty Bastard was 23 different kinds of crazy that night.

He even stole the microphone, and told everyone to get in his van.

You can’t deny his unique flow on the beat.

O.D.B. didn’t have to ride the beat, he just complimented it.

Now, when you think about O.D.B. You  think of hin having an EBT Card, as after selling millions of Records, and  his drug overdose.

O.D.B. was always high!

At the concert, he said, “I don’t want to talk to the prettiest girls in here, I want the ugliest.”

 One of my favorite lines from O.D.B,  “I don’t want to go back to the Police Station,  they trying to send Dirt on a long vacation!”

RIP Russell Jones

 

 

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