bob bowers- one tough pirate is still fighting ***messymandella***

Bob Bowers is an AIDS Survivor and determined man!
He has abandoned the victim role and became a fighter who believes with diligence and self awareness you can live your life, but take your meds. Bob is a part of my selective Twitter Fam, and I love him for his courage and bravery.
Here is a glimpse of A mortal that will remain unchanged by his diagnosis, but will vow to give reassurance to those men and women that have contracted the disease. Even The HIV negative family must  support the HIV Positive family. No one should fight alone.


I was here! ***messymandella*** beyonce and nicki minaj

I love the fact that it is “supposedly” a mans world.

When a woman steps in the spotlight, it intimidates some weak-minded individuals.

Are you that strong force to be reckoned with,do you catch a glare in your hater’s eyes?

 Can you stay in the background and “bite your tongue? ”

You must not know about me…

I know that I am here to help people, and be strong!

Sometimes its hard to stay strong during adversity, but that pain and betrayal will make you free.

I don’t think any man or woman should be quiet just to please the masses.

 Sometimes it takes that small little voice to make the forest shake! 

Are you going to let anyone bring you down?

 They will make you second guess your destiny, but is that their fault you let them win?

 I want freedom from liars, racism, and homophobia!

I want Santra Rucker home!

Santra Rucker will get her freedom, or at least another chance at life, we worked hard enough!

I refuse to stop teaching young women and men about emotional and physical abuse.

 I refuse to sleep with someone who has a girlfriend or partner or be anyone’s secret.

 Lying and withholding information are the same damn thing.

Don’t fall into the trap of being simple or afraid of making your dreams your proud legacy and never let someone bully you!

 I am going to make sure that I leave my mark in this world like it or not, I am here.

I strive to give love and patience to everyone I meet.

 I can’t be like everyone else, because I am different and I stand up for myself and my beliefs.

I never look back at my mistakes, just the people who made them…

Mistakes are free and experience is a gift.

Mistakes are nothing but pain and reflection that guides you to your blessings. 

I will not be submissive, and let people defame my character.

I have a damn voice, and you are going to respect it! 

Even if you know how your heart feels on certain issues, your self-respect means more.

 We Are all Responsible to let our light shine.

I feel freedom, when I leave a manipulative situation!

I feel free!

 I don’t care when they are mad, if they deserve the anger!

I will never give in to self-serving people.

I will never bow down just to be loved.

Do you let the world see you?

I am not going to live to be 80 years old, I just know it! 

 I want my remaining time to be spent with true friends and loved ones that had my back no matter what happened.

Respect my outside life, because in my personal life I am a very private person… 

My inspiration and dedication will guide me through it all.

 I am sure that through your emotional turmoil,  you learned a lesson.

 I refuse to settle for someone who does not deserve me.

You shouldn’t either, be free and live your life!

I want to show the world that I was here…




Bleach Wars: Oprah “Light Girls” And The Skin Bleaching Addiction! ***messymandella***

      We are brainwashed thanks, to our Willie Lynch mind-set and media obsession with skin color. We are embarrassed with our nappy hair. Does that make yourself more European? We have natural hair treatment that we used to avoid nappy hair. You can add extensions and weave with an silkier texture. It still does not mean you are unhappy with your race. Weave has a negative connotation and women debate, and have to defend the ideology of weave. Now, the skin bleaching cream is a horse of another color (no hair pun intended) because it is shameful that you hate your skin.


” I Was tired of being ugly.”
         Even in songs people want a “Yellow” women like it is a trophy. When did black become ugly? Black became ugly during slavery and the House Slaves were usually mulattoes. The darker skinned slaves were treated as second class slaves and were required to be in the field. Our generation wouldn’t doubt their beauty unless this hatred is taught. We stopped loving ourselves.
       You can’t leave your job dark-skinned and then show up the next day the color of    Mariah Carey.
Something is wrong here, mentally not physically.

       Your body, your liver, your self-hate and self-deprivation!




Lyfe Jennings – Pretty Is ***messymandella***


Simply ***messymandella*** Elisabeth Withers


When you woke up this morning, did you think of what had to complete before anything else?
Of course you did!
Did you take a minute and look outside and just take a breath?

Sometimes we forget the our blessings and our temptations.
We are programmed and don’t even realize it to automatically waste the time we are provided for frivolous moments in our lives.
You open your eyes and look at yourself, time to go On Instigram and Twitter to get laid, right?
You debate should you go back to sleep, but then you remember that you have to pay the light bill or mail that package.

First, you to prove to everyone you have money, on all forms of Social Media, and have options to get laid, that is why you haven’t had a chance to touch her honey bun.

God forbid. we took time to actually discuss politics, family and just being blessed to breathe the air we are given, but we can’t do that it is too simple and too real.

We have to show off!

You didn’t even acknowledge the Sun, your God, or the fact that you are blessed enough to visualize

a new day, because you were obligated to do those things, right?

Every moment is already planned  from the moment you get up, to when you plan to go to the grocery store ; to even what time you will preheat the oven for dinner tonight!

You have planned to have for dinner that night at 7:25 PM.
What happened to spontaneous thoughts?
When did we forget to look inside ourselves and let that be the Compass that would guide us to a better living?
We have put a battery in our back and became a machine,  just doing but not thinking about anything life altering in any sense!

Just  using robotic movement and getting it done!
Just living enough to complete projects, because you HAVE to do it!

You missed the leaves on the ground, because you are to worried about getting them in a bag off your lawn!
That is what you are programmed to do,isn’t it?
If you took a few minutes just to imagine an earlier moment in life while sitting  in  those leaves you

would have gained a natural reflection, but nooooo!



The friend that  has passed away  might be trying to give you a message of love, but you don’t have time!

Every moment of your promising life is spent looking to hook up with strangers.


You STILL have to get back to Instigram and hope that  “desperately seeking attention girl” changes her clothes.

Her self-esteem is missing in action, and you must give her  your undivided attention because her husband left home, or she has played herself out.

SHE IS BEAUTIFUL but damaged and poses to show off  more of what is not worth what it used to be, and now the  viewing isn’t quite A-List!

She appears to be aware of the scrutiny and devaluing of her property value (self-worth dies by the second) but as of now,we must pretend she is not crying inside.

Sadly, it may be a little too late…


You have turned off your intuition and knowledge that you were born with, that Innate Knowledge.

You Forgot about the “Simple Things”, and we are so blinded by these stupid moments of nothing that give us courage to film more pictures in our phone.

The world is obligated  to know we are sexy to someone and it is important, instead of just doing important shit.

You are searching in the wrong places for the wrong things, before you know it the right thing is gone!

You missed out on a blessing, but you will learn that in the end, when someone else appreciates your blessing that you misused, and discarded like trash.

You were too busy being consumed by nothingness and you overlooked the fact that you had flowers, you didn’t even notice were planted now blooming in your yard.

Those flowers are now covering that hole by your porch, that you were going to hire someone to beautify for you.

God was your landscaper, but you never even thanked him.

He fixed it for you, but you were too busy being frivolous and superficial. 

You didn’t realize that the hole which  covered on your porch, wasn’t a problem but an overlooked blessing.

Sadly, the hole in your soul expanded, and by the look of the things, it will overtake you entire existence by all means. 

We all must run from the false hoods, those lies that  blinded and consumed us.

We can only embrace truth by avoiding the artificial and irrelevancies in our universe.

Take a couple of minutes a day just to look at the simple things…




Thirsty Thursday Sermon: Future Prostitutes of America, Take Heed!***messymandella***The Gospel Of Teena Marie*(1981)

Once again aint talking about adults pimp or prostitutes.
They have free will. This for  the teenagers that are lost. 

         If you are an adult and have limited self-esteem and dignity in life that is your pathetic and superficial life. This message is for the little girls and under 21 year old that are kidnapped, manipulated and  only searching for love. You don’t know what a “daddy” does in life. My daddy is the man that paid my tuition with his entire check just so I could attend school and read me stories and kept a roof over my head.

              Your “daddy” promises you wealth and plays upon your weakness to build up their cash. It is not funny when someone says they are a pimp that is their business, but it is too easy to manipulate these little girls and the vulture should feel ashamed.
Do what you want to be one of the  worn out ones…

Leave our young women alone and stop destroying their  a chance to succeed.

Is your pinky ring more important than those teenage girls future livelihood?

If you a real “daddy”  buy them a house, but buy yourself one too.  Pay her tuition.

No man that loves you will sale you. Once again this is for my teenager readers and people who are watching some little girl get brainwashed on Social Media or in school. You are amazing teenage girls and your body should be your temple.

I speak from experience, I knew a square pimp.

He would preach hate to those dummies and they would fall for it every single time. IT was a bunch of brain dead fools that are helping to destroy the family structure.

Be the “Square” that  has your own possessions and a reason to hold your head up high!

You will regret that you wasted years of your life and gave away your body to watch new sisters  added every day, courtesy of “daddy.”

My theory is that men who are like that are loosing their hair, or have a small penis, or just can’t fight on stage. Yes,that Summer brings madness!

Here are the 48 Laws of Pimping from Pimpin’ Ken:

  1. Purse First, Ass Last
  2. Get a Name in a Game
  3. Don’t Chase ‘Em, Replace ‘Em
  4. Keep a Ho in Arrears
  5. Prey on the Weak
  6. When Pimpin’ Begins, Friendship Ends
  7. Pimp the Game
  8. Don’t Let Your History Be a Mystery
  9. Learn the Rules
  10. Plan Your Work and Work Your Plan
  11. Avoid Gorillas and Godzillas
  12. Ain’t No Love in this Shit
  13. Pimp Like You’re Ho-less
  14. Better a Turnout than a Burnout
  15. Say What You Mean and Mean What You Say
  16. Give Motivation and Inspiration
  17. Get YouBottom Bitch
  18. Cop and Blow
  19. Turn Ho Ends into Dividends
  20. Get in a Ho’s Head
  21. A Ho Without Instruction Is Headed for Self-Destruction
  22. Keep Hoes on Their Toes
  23. A Ho Joins A Stable to Ruin It
  24. Set the Trend
  25. Grind for Your Shine
  26. The Game is to be Sold, Not Told
  27. Keep Your Game on the Low
  28. Be a Leader
  29. Play One Ho Against the Next
  30. Prosperity over Popularity
  31. Look out for Suzy Choosy
  32. Turn a Tramp into a Champ
  33. Bring Your People With You to theTop
  34. Show Respect to Get Respect
  35. Trust Nothing but the Game
  36. Be Internationally Known, Nationally Recognized, and Locally Accepted
  37. Let a Ho Know
  38. Wreck a Hater
  39. Switch Up
  40. Don’t Down ‘Em, Crown ‘Em
  41. Keep Your Front Up Till You Come Up
  42. Talk Shit and Swallow Spit
  43. If You Can See It, You Can Be It
  44. You Need Fire and Desire
  45. Get Rid of the Word “If”
  46. Move and Shake Like a Pimp Shakes
  47. Pimpin’ Is What You Do, Not Who You Are
  48. Don’t Believe the Hype

These laws come from the book Pimpology: The 48 Laws of the Gameby Pimpin’ Ken. Ken is a loser that should have went to a temp agency instead of making slaves of his own women.


Square Biz

If some men condone this we as women must stand up for our rights. It is not love and you are not a business transaction.

Make him get a  job and treat women they way he would want to treat his future child. Don’t hate him, he is ignorant to your self-worth and thinks he is above you, so he uses you.

Girls are getting younger and easier to manipulate by a seasoned manipulator.  

He doesn’t love you, when he says “break bread.”

Pimping is a mind game!

They use the word “square” like it is a curse word to lower your self-love. Look at everyone around you and on TV baby, this hate teaching is bull, from a manipulative con-artist.

They are manipulating you to erase all truths that are self-evident and eventually you will prostitute why he buys more rings.

You little girls are lost, because after you sale yourself so he can buy chains,while he is traveling the world sleeping with other dummies.

You are letting a asshole convince you to give up family, love, and life to follow their message of hatred and commercialized deception.

Look at the truth, celebrity couples  and real couples love, and love does exist.


You want him to love you and you figure if you stay blinded, any interaction with is better than none.

Do you think he would have sex for money and hand the money to you? 

Baby, you dancing with the Devil.

We have demonic people in this world that use deceit, steal and manipulate you, but would flip if it happened to  their nieces or sisters. It breaks my heart to hear girls say, “No square here” because the brainwashing has already taken place. If no one teaches them to strive for better, our daughters are lost for good.

“If Daddy’s love you,  daddy won’t have sex with you!”

What happens at 45 years old when you have wasted your time destroying your temple?

Are you going to be into that hotel still turning tricks, you are content living that room service life?

He will not spend his life with you, and he makes fun of love to lure you into making  him money.

You girls are getting younger and sadly dumber by the minute, because the best looking pimps are the most deceptive.

Loyalty has nothing to do with sleeping around and taking care of them financially.

You would hope and pray that their soul would be less heinous, but it is not and you have wasted your life being passed around like an animal,but you are a  human.

  You are someone’s little girl.


You have  allowed someone to manipulate every goal, wisdom, and ambition to keep them fed and fund their travel money.

Let him convince his mirror that he is preaching the gospel, but only a hypocrite would lie to convince you to leave boyfriend, to get used to supply his wealth.

When you sale ass, that don’t make you a queen.

 We know the truth.

Ain’t no queens at the Grey Hound Bus Station turning tricks and Kings and panderers will never be one in the same. A king takes care of family. A king never uses you to make his empire bigger!

People think the fake anti-love living is strictly about sex.

No, it is  primarily about breaking down your self esteem, because they have lost their soul and need company in hell. How is he taking care of you if he is passing you around to increase his wealth?

You can become a doctor, singer, mother and you don’t have to ruin your life to appease him. Being a square means less disease, and potential to have a real life and write your place in history.Pimps will even mock their own religion to further their selfishness and greed.

Square is a good thing. It is never cool to sleep with naive girls and bring that negativity to promising little girls that just want to be loved but they do because that gold is built on deception.

You blinded baby.

I am proof you can have all your own shit and use your brain, not your body to get it.


They are programming these girls on Instigram to only think about money and sex, and to be shallow and fake.

Those girls neglect their career for a little Instigram fame, but what happens when that pimp moves on to another fool?

If he loved you, he would sale HIS ass to take care of you.

He doesn’t think enough of you to protect you.

A father will protect your body, not sale it.

It is time to remember who you were before you became a  misguided statistic and fell into the trap of a monster.

If it hurts your heart to read it, you still have a chance to grow and flourish in a positive life.  I am dumbing this article down, because you deserve a chance. You may have a hard time reading big words while on the on hoe stroll.

We all know, “knowledge leads to freedom.”




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