NoMoreDownLow.TV Ep. 303 Unsolved Black LGBT Murders & Attacks ***messymandella***

 
        No matter what he did or said, those were people whom he considered friends and even at one time, roommates. Remember, the deceptive nature of backstabbing can build into their obsession, and altering perception in  life. You have to be able to decipher those fake smiles and each jealous glance. Transgender’s are in between both worlds and sexual ideologies because they know who they are, even if the world is unfaltering with their perception. The world perceives them by their sexual organs they were born with, and that is not the idea behind Trans Men or women.
 
          Some perceive the altering of your sex unacceptable, but at the end of the day it is your life and you deserve to have a chance for happiness, and these murdered and unmentioned, they belonged to someone and was loved and is dearly missed. Someone decided to play God, and brutally murdered someone who loved and even shared possible friendly connections with them. The police usually give up on finding murders of prostitutes,runaways, or LGBT Youth that were living a “high risk life. “They  are not doing anything anymore gross than what happens at any strip club. You can’t condemn homosexuality, but be fine with immorality.     
 
             WE in our society pick what laws we won’t to follow in our Holy Grail, but ignore the sins that we ourselves are committing. but someone knows something. Sadly, most police and hatemongers blame them for their deaths. These lives were important, and it doesn’t matter who they slept with, it mattered that someone assumed their life was not important because of  emotionally and a attraction.  These lives matter, and I think it is a double standard in our hip hip culture. Men will hang with lesbian studs, but will shun gay men. That needs to change in this industry.
 
      Perfect example, If we are having a family dinner, my cousins are outside laughing and talking to my dad and uncles. My  gay male cousins are in the kitchen with us,and that is how it usually is on every holiday. That is where they feel the most accepted.
 
So, why can’t a gay man go to the club with straight urban men?
 
Two  lesbians could ride along to the club with you, and you would take them to get a Big Mac, and Thot Juice.

 
You know who you are? 
 
How is that fair or balancing in any rationality?
 
What part of the Bible, are ya’ll reading?

 

 
 

Thirsty Thursday Sermon: Madge (Madonna) Takes A Tumble, Because Of Satan’s Head Gear!***messymandella***

Madonnna Louise Ciccone, is 155 years  old(August 16, 1958) and has flourished in the world and prestige that most musicians imitate but can never be cloned.

Madonna has sold ass since 1920, and now she has  invested in Satanic Head Gears.
 
God don’t like Satan, and Satan is the reason you busted your ass.
 
You do not say you living for love and dancing on stage dressed like a  Satanic Bull Herder. So after you busted your ass, you should have prayed.
 
I am here for you, as a seasoned Christian of sorts, I rebuke your demonic stage presence and here is some encouragement.
 
I can’t believe you.You  and Jesus caught the school bus together.
 
How soon we forget!
 
May this song reach your heart.

 

 

 

Jay Z-I can’t get with that (1994)***messymandella***

 

Throw Back memories! This is how and when I fell in love with hip hop.
 
Hip Hop was that forbidden fruit  that I had to have…
 
This excerpt  retrieved from an earlier excerpt from the now famous unheard of by anyone
 
  Trap Diary  of  ***messymandella***
  
 

 
THIS is the  first rap song I fell in love with, I was a little girl playing with Rail Road Pup, who I still have now.
 
I don’t think ya’ll ready to see Rail Road Pup, he has sadly lost his eyes and bandanna.
 
My older cousins have put him up for ransom, on ceiling fans, in a tree, in the ditch( boy cousins are evil) and I had to unthaw him out the freezer.
 
He has had a rough life,but he still shining.

 

Meet my child hood toy that is still ride or die!

 
pup
 
let me find out someone been laughing at him….
 
We would sneak up in the middle of the night, and watch all the rap videos we could find that my little ass shouldn’t have been looking at, but it happened.
 
My parents tell me that I have had this toy since I was a toddler,just started walking, and grabbed him and cried and screamed in the store, and would not put him down.
 
I had to have him!  
 
He is still in the house!
 
Rail Road Pup still Repping the hood. I don’t care that he is old and on his last leg, I stay loyal to all my people.
 
He was my partner in crime, and any person in my life must show his fur and swag respect.
 
This is the first video that made me want to be ***messymandella***
 
I loved Rap music before I had all my teeth. Some of you don’t have teeth, due to fights and Gingivitis.
 
I loved Hip Hop when Rail Road Pup had eyes…
 

 
 

Ugly Heroes| Apollo Brown, Vebral Kent, Red Pill***messymandella***

 

 “An Ugly Hero is considered a myth. Growing up, the heroes we saw in cartoons and movies were perfectly chiseled, intelligent, and had senses none of us possess. An UGLY HERO is the everyday blue-collar individual that makes the world go ’round. These are the heroes that work hard all day, everyday to help ensure that the lives around them are taken care of, and do it all without recognition. They wear themselves into the ground and sacrifice vanity for family.”

 

Don’t ever sacrifice your passion for ART! When you give up on the world we lose knowledge and divine light,that could be pleasing and beneficial to the entertainment world. All writers, rappers, artist, and directors must compromise their pain, at times to bring the world their gift. You may be eating Ramen Noodles now, because that is all you can afford, but that struggle is inside of you!
        Don’t forget  your unique love for the spiritual and artistic vision  that everyone deserves to appreciate and emulate. Even if you are a waitress paying bills and feel like giving up, countless of others have been in your same predicament. Pay your bills, but still keep shining.
That struggle is what is keeping you motivated, and don’t let every day struggle omit your passion for life.
Sometimes we have to go through Hell, to get to Heaven.

 

 

Blonde, Bad, Beautiful And Luxurious***messymandella***Lola Monroe/Gwen Stefani

 
Skin tone
Cool Vs Warm Skin Tones
Pay attention to Your eye color
Rock your look with confidence


 

 

 

 
 

***messymandella*** Classic Story:Karlton Hines

            We adhere to street codes and live and ride for our city. When you are a “Street Star” you will remain a whisper, a legend and cautionary tale. Karlton Hines is now a Legend but he is not living. Talent, looks, and money were his traits that caught the stares and jealousy from others. That will also his downfall. Karlton,a Basketball Star that family and friends revered and perceived as a Hero knew he was a leader and a born legend. We all have a chance to get out of the hood! However, urban men are told the only practices that will gain them wealth are pimping, drug dealing or Sports. No one even attempts anything else without doubt. We are programmed to believe that these are the only components to accomplish hood wealth.

           We don’t realize that money is from other hands that know we will eventually destroy our neighborhoods forever. Someone needs our men dead, and we are helping them achieve this feat, every day.Karlton Hines played Basketball, and he knew he had the fame and admiration of everyone. He was raised in a single family neighborhood.
Karlton could be seen in PS1 Park playing at 3:00 AM.His coaches wouldn’t push his studies, because he benefited them. Game was already in front of him.

           He was under the impression that his grades were second to his ability for the game. Karlton had over 30 recruiters at a time offering him scholarships. That power and understanding of game is that the people that are left behind, sometimes want your impending failure. Karlton quit because of a disciplinary problem. He also lied about his address to play at the school of his choice. He was caught after hours breaking the rules, and instead of dealing with repercussions he left school. He quit school 4 months before graduating with his High school diploma Of course, he was attractive and had charisma that would always propel him to another level. Karlton won MVP when he was only 13 and 14. Older children were intimidated by him,because of his game with ladies, and with the courts. Karlton(nicknamed “C”)did not bite his tongue on the court. He had physical and mental strength that other ballers envied at a young age.

         Karlton was the baby,but garnered more attention than his older brothers, and street soldiers in the game! Karlton could have made millions legally, but he couldn’t leave the hood values and backwards mentallity. His brothers were not blessed to receive Karltons gift of street intelligence,that would later be his curse. He was 6’5 and athletic, cocky and was given every persons admiration, and full attention.

       He loved the “Stage!” Yes, the hood has its on stage and community that is the mecca of the dealers, players, and goldiggers.

        They know how to get chose, and be seen. Once you get chose to be a part of “The Life” you are too afraid to leave what you know to be morally incorrect.

         In the hood it only takes a “New York Minute” to change your entire life. Karlton and his friend were walking from the store. They were in an altercation with a neighborhood friend “Tweedy” and “Tweedy” pulled out a knife. Karlton defended himself with a bottle, it went across the neck, of “Tweedy” and was pronounced dead at the hospital. Karlton stayed on the run for 11 days. He was arrested but later set free, because it was ruled self defense.

        Karlton walks out a free man, but that one moment changed his entire life. He was damaged to recruiters, and already entered the system and his life had a few limitations. He could no longer be a Hood Celebrity by the Basketball Game, so he the chose the other side of the game.

         Karlton’s street soldiers had him walking around with thousands in his pockets. He could not forget his hood. “Duncan Hines” had that rush of adrenaline and that mental choice to be the Legend. He didn’t want basketball to infiltrate his street credibility. He chose to leave his talent, and go for the blood money. Karlton decided to walk further into the pit of destruction. His looks and personality started to change.

         He also blamed Coach, old teachers, everyone for not having his back, and he was too ashamed to go back to school, he went further in the drug game!

PETER “PISTOL PETE” ROLLOCK

Pistol Pete and the Blood affiliated Sex, Money and Murder gang were the scourge of the Soundview section of the Bronx back in the day. In his teens and into his early twenties Pistol Pete acquired a reputation as a ruthless killer, who made millions in the drug game in the late 80’s and early 90’s. He was known as one of the most feared and powerful men in New York during the crack era, who could get people killed with his word alone. His influence and organization stretched south from the city’s five boroughs reaching out and touching states all across the eastern seaboard. Pistol Pete was one of Soundview’s Original Gangsters, setting the bar high for his hood and the Northeast Bronx. – Gorilla Convict http://www.gorillaconvict.com/peter-pistol-pete-rollock-2/

One thing some don’t understand about “The Game” is that you always are competing. You only live once, but someone is always ready to shoot you, and make an example of you, and tarnish your legacy. What you build is a charade of evil and an “Execution chamber” This game will never have a winner. Karlton Hines found that out the hard way, with his friend Carlos. Pistol Pete who is know serving Life stole Karlton’s chance at a new life. karlton Hines was 25 years old when he died. He was found with $5000.00 in his pockets. It’s a game that we will not win. No matter how many times we live it and remember it,we hope it will be diffrent. Karlton Hines died on April 8th , 1994 and that money in his pocket could not keep him breathing, so what did it give him?

We are getting caught up in these movies, and images, and giving props to men behind a cell who can’t even go outside when they want, but we idolize them. We even study where they went wrong, so we won’t make that mistake. No one wins the game, and it is a trap. Karlton Hines is in a casket and Pistol Pete is in a a cot on a box with stories and commissary. We are destroying our own existence and making single moms raise the babies without knowledge on how to make a man survive. Karlton Hines chose the wrong game to gain fame. Even though we know, no one wins in the game but everyone thinks they will be different…

Phantogram – When I’m Small (Live on KEXP) ***messymandella***

 
 
 

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